Confusion

Love

2010-01-26T09:22:00.000-08:00

Love.

i think its the most used word. over used, more like.
the most misused word too.
love-
abused yet easily available.
over rated yet satisfying.
confusing yet to be revelled in.
overlooked yet seeked.
underestimated yet yearned for.
taken-for-granted yet appreciated.

and yet no matter what we do we all want it, even if we deny it or run away from it, it always is there and keeps up with us, always.

Life can get complicated by just this ONE tiny word. or infact it may not even actually BE complicated but may appear so.love is delusional. As tiny as it may seem it is omnipresent and means different things to different people.

I thought it would always make me happy but there have been times where I've been sad and miserable sometimes too. Today, though is a different story and i am happy *touchwood* =) very happy infact :) I 'underestimated' it, I underestimated me and my love.

at this same time there is another who is so highly 'confused' she doesnt know wats going on. She talks to everyone about it and takes opinions but refuses to listen to her heart.

then another. he doesnt want to listen to his heart. we can hear it more loudly than he can but yet he will 'overloook' it all.overlook her.

say hello to the next. she knows wat she wants in life and wat she doesn't. she has everythin set but in her mind. but on the outside it's all a big hotch potch. she has love, infact she has surplus of it. now, doesn't know wat to do? she's 'revelling' in it and yet 'yearning' for more or something different. An out on all of this!

and then one of the most commonest- she is 'seeking' for love. looked but didn't find, not looking anymore but is still waiting.and when it came.. no no no. she 'overlooks' or DOESN'T LOOK :)
but i guess this happens to most of us, right? so its fine.. or is it?

then what about unrequitted love? how long should i wait? hmmm... its been a while now, let's move on? he doesn't know wat to do, but he still loves.

then come these-talk.flirt.love.'abuse'. throw. next.talk.flirt.love.'abuse'.throw.next.
and so it continues. wat does love mean to these? does it even mean anyhtin? does it even exist for them? do they even know of anything even CALLED love???

but watever.
to each his own.
jus hurts to see such a beautiful emotion moulded in so many ways, sometimes confused for another, sometimes mixed with another and sometimes lost altogether.

we each hope that one day we do find our loves, some of us do some don't and these are the ones who just haven't tried. tried to look around, tried to reach out or even jus tried :)
i hope we all learn to love our loves one day.

two thousand and eight

2008-12-31T03:50:00.000-08:00

. exams finally end on the 8th of Jan . we go for our AMAZING Goa trip . Salomi turns twenmty . i organise an amazing Rose Day . Dom n me become Rose King & Queen . i continue to drift . Dom & me also become Prom King & Queen . my 2 best friends start getting "friendly" . Dom &b me celebrate our first anniversary . i screw up someones life . Dom & me talk . we work it out & are still together . someone breaks up . my best friend is sad, pissed off and confused . Des & me begin to drift apart . Sag turns twenty . everyone's bitching about 'her' & her 'smile' . Vinu turns twenty, but we don't celebrate . she has exams . my exams come again . Meike & me become better friends . i introduce her to Candies . exams end . Rafael Nadal wins his first ever Wimbeldon Lawn Tennis tournment beating five time champ & Salomi's fav- Roger Federe . Dom & me are great . Shibu's back from Frnce . Meike goes back home to Germany . college begins again . Dom & me are still great thogh he's not in college anymore . Nadal becomes World #1 & Fed-ex is World #2 . there's big time inflation-11% . Dom gets a job at ITC . a stray dog bites me... again . salomi, kush & me go with aak's family to Kard to surprise her for her Birthday . we make her a soft toy . i get a fringe . Mosaic's here . not so big a deal . i become Head of Finance . Anhita & floru are Head of PR . des is Mktg co-ord . Shalu is creative head . Elita is... herself . Mallu & i become "sweethearts" . Results come out . i'm first in Class with an aggregate of 76% . Dom is with me . but Florence isn't . she gets a drop . so do Reuben, bruno, kaustubh, anson, eisha, Einstein, shweta i & pratik . Mosaic is fun . Des & i patch up . Dom & i start fighting again & decide on taking a break . i go to pune . i talk to someone . Opium and me become buddies . dom & me break up . it's my twentieth birthday and it sucks . i get a tattoo . salomi accompanies me for it . aak comes homw for diwali . Salomi, Aak & me meet . Adora's become big & so is Su . we see Fashion . there's the world's worst ever financila crisis . saloni turns twenty . we celebrate . Dom turns twenty-two . we don't celebrat . nadine turns twent . we celebrate . barrack obama becomes the first ever black/African American to be eleceted as President of the United States of America . Adi n me create a record of meeting more than thrice a month . i join driving class . the Taj is attacked . the worst & biggest ever terror attacked witnessed by us . we are unprepared . people dying, people crying . ia m crying . i still try to cope with being alone . Vilasrao deshmukh is not CM . Shivraj patil resigns . P. Chidambaram is the new Home minister . RR patil resigns . salomi si abum but we're best friends always . we're 'in love' . poo & me talk things over . so do my 'best friend' and me . exams are back . im still crying. Ashok Chavan of Nanded, Latur is the new MH CM . naaryan rane is pissed . meghana heble gets engagaed . her fiance looks like federe tho pa doesnt agree . Priya akku's wedding gets postponed ans hence my bangalore trip . Chaggan Bhujbal's the new Dep CM . India blames Pak . chief of Al-Quieda foun din PoK by Pak armies . im over dom . i learn a new phrase-"Ultra Fucking Cool" (UFC) . tried for scholarship at MAAC . result sucked albeit surprisingly . nikhil n rads turn TWENTY-ONE . my stoooooooooopid college distributes the wronmg paper hence we solve TCS instead of AT . i go to roshnis place n have beer n vodka n whisky . fundo mix . i give my drieivn teat on a Santro which refuses to start . riding test on Kinetic is AWESOME . getting my license on the 2nd of Jan '09 . going to celebrate new year's at sag's n saloni's with salmi,slaoni,sag,kushal,anshu,devleena,yash,tanvi & maybe uttara .its neets pacchi n prakash mam's 25th Wedding Anniversary . we're gonna celebrate . see you next year . i love you all .

Love Autopsy

2008-12-31T03:33:00.000-08:00

this poem is a SPECIAL dedication to a certain "bitch". tho im positive she won't ever read my blog, which i really wish she would do.but watever.

it's over, it's finished
it felt like a dream
we're two separate souls now
who were once a team

everyone looked
& everyone spoke
as they saw our love
when slowly it broke

they called me names
& gossiped about us
i didin't wince even once
when they all made such a big fuss

my life was shattered
& my heart broke
but for everyone watching
it was just a joke

something to talk about
another topic to 'investigate' & probe
while i was lying lonely here
losing all hope

this was like my love's autopsy
where everythign was cut up
to look deeper inside
& find out the fuck up

so my tears didn't matter
or the hurt i went through
the scars all over our love
noone had a clue

each one did contribute
to add to the trash
they could've left it as it was
but no, they had to make the itch a rash

and now as i slowly heal
they don't stop it at that
they wanna know who i'm with now
so they can start another chat

is it always necessary
to be the half of a one?
when being alone & enjoying this phase
i have just begun!

i'm still in love, i do agree
but it still is him
but being in love doesnt mean being together
& if YOU think so then your chances of finding "HIM" ar ereally slim.

every once in a while, when someone breaks up, you gossip and enjoy it. throwing mud on the people.
it's fun for you but it's serious for me. it's my LIFE... so honestly, i think that SOME PEOPLE desperately need to mind their own fucked up businesses n jus cos you arent gettin screwed enough don't screw others lives.

I'm misssing you...

2008-12-31T03:01:00.000-08:00

this is my last blog entry for this year. but considerin the fact that ive hardly blogged at all this year, im happy that i atleast managed to pen this one.its kinda special.

what do you do when you miss somebody?

do you see their photographs?

do you try n recollect how they look?

do you try to remember all the times you've spent together?

do you remmeber how they spoke, how their voices sounded?

do you remember how you fought?

do you remember about the things they liked or hated...or what made them happy or sad?

wat do you do?

or then do you just call them up?

or probably go see them?

but what if, just what if they weren't there or for some reason there's no way in the world you could ever see them again?wat could you do?

well im feelin like that now.im feeling "missing you" right now.

my granduncle passed away last september. its been more than a year now but i miss him, alot. prolly more so cos i'd hardly spenty so much time with him anyways (he lived in America) and i wish i could have him for longer.
i remember him in bits n pieces... when he came to India twice or when i went there n he chucked his busy schedule to entertain me! but most of all i remember the way he smiled, cos i used to call him Bugs Bunny cos of his buck teeth! ill never be able to see him smile again.

or my grandaunt who also passed away in April 2007, with whom id spent the most time, after my immediate family,i miss her too. i miss talkin to her or hear her laugh. she had cancer n if you'd see her you could never tell that.
she was really fat n cute n had a very hearty laugh.also because of her weight she had, what i call, a penguin walk!!! she has 3 grandchildren, now 4, but yet she loved me the most. i don't know why or even how. even before she passed away she was in a coma n i was the last person she spoke to. that makes me feel special but also sad. sad because i can never talk to her again.
i wonder how she'd feel if she were alive today? to see her new born grandson or me graduating next year? these are somethings nobody can tell.or even if they may try n guess i can never know how i'd feel.

so wat do i do? not much of a choice i have now, do i?

but then there are some.they may not be dead... but they're only alive in my heart, in my memories n photographs. but i still cant see them, meet them or talk to them. so wat do i do?
and knowing the fact that they still are there, somewhere around me but not having to be able to talk to them or even see tham makes me feel worse.

so i guess i'll just leave it there and wait until i see them next. which im sure i will.
but until then... i' missing you...

long time no see

2008-11-21T21:28:00.000-08:00

hey guys!
im so sorrry for not writing here forever... not like too many of u'll follow it anyways =P
but i missed it toooooooo..... the writing ... or more like not writin forever.
i didnt know that id jus let my blog be n not contribute to it forever but it makes me feel miserable.
welll its been a whole yr now!!! fun na (not really), n im back...hopefully will try to stick on for a while now.

well in the past year a ZILLION things have changed......infact in the past moth itslf.
for one, i turned 20!!!
i got a tattoo.... yup i did im sure more than half of u'll readin this will be so damn jealous!!!!
then i broke up or more like he dumped me, which broke my heart n made me miserable n incosolably sad for wat seemed like forever...but im back to feelin great again!

but in the last yr ive learned so MUCH wen i loook back- bout myself n the world n ppl n EVERYTHIN.
in fact i think in the last yr it mustve also been the first time wen someone mustve flirted with me but i totally hated it! the last year was very ..... DIFFERENT.
i had a lotta firsts last year.... n this yr again is drawin to an end.
the only diff between the last year n this is that i feel happier with myslf in a lotta ways n a lil less happier in the others, iv learned to deal with myself n others, ive learned to deal with the worst thing ever- CHANGE.
n then of course ive loved some n loved some more but some lovin jus never ends.
it jus sits inside, unspoken n unheard.

so heres hopin to me continuin my rubbish writin!
see you'll

AHEMDABAD part I - the preparations

2007-11-20T01:16:00.000-08:00

first of all this entry might seem way too late to fill in n ive been dyin to do this since i dunno wen but somehow or the other it doesnt work.
first i was too bored to write.
then i wanted to write but i didnt have pics to complement it.
then i got the pics but was bored again!
& so on n so forth....
but here i am finally writing after SOOOOOO long!!!!
feels good!!!! *takes a deeeeeeeeeeeeep breath *

well this entry is about my EXTREMELY adventurous adventure (n believe me it was serious FUN!!!) to AHEMDABAD.

a few months back sam had asked me if i wanted to go for the AISC(All India Student Council) of the IEEE this year.
i was ok wiht it but ocnsidering the fact that i was an SE i was surprised how come the others including himself weren't goin.well apparently cos i was the only one of the 2 SE's who were registered !!!

i didnt give it too much thought but again around september sam asked me again if ireally did wanna go n it was happenin in Ahemdabad on the 28th,29th n 30th of september.i agreed withou teven botherin to know who else was comin.
besides at that point of time i had spoken to sam so much about it that i was convinced this trip would be very "knowledgable" n was completely n totally besotted with the whole idea of a vacation(ok fine semi vacation)!!!! *ya right!*
a few days later it was decide dthat 5 of us would go des n me from the SE n 3 guys from the TE.
vineet- who i kinda knew
joel- nerdy but really sweet n loved to call me up fo rthe lamest of reasons
& charles- who is this guy?

but i was like, okay, watever.
besides i wasnt goin there to have fun anyways na? *i wasn't...... right?*

HA HA here comes the BIG surprise. des madame didnt wanna go ALLLLL the way to ahemdabad unaccompanied by a teacher.
well honestly i have no idea why anybody would give up such an opportunity to go on a mini vacation that too fully paid.... but watever by da end of it NO teacher wanted to go with us. maybe they didnt know who charles was either!!!
n thanx to des's stubborness ,or watever she did, a bunch (five of them) of the BE's agreed to go wiht us.
seema- i love her
charlene- i knew her, didnt love her so far
mayur- "tambi" he was jus this guy who WAS the vice chairman(or some such post) of the IEEE student chapter of my college.
arvin-lord of the 'cunt' *hem hem... details later *
& dennis- now who's THIS guy?

well finally with the lot decided n a lot of other rubbish put in (wanna spare u the details 'cause it includes things like meetin rathore to get some crappy permissions ...yadda yadda) we were ready to leave!!!!!!!!!!!
yippee!!!

* to be conTInUEd

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2007-08-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

Maybe because today is "Friendship day", im feeling all "friend-ly". bu tthere's this beutiful feeling ad i dont know wat it is! im happy n this is the feeling that hasnt really 'come' to me in a long loooong time!

there's like this friends theme thingy goin on alla round me right now. for instance i just read da 7th and LAST * sob sob sob* and FRIENDSHIP is the one relationship that stands out!
be it harry, ron n hermione or Albus n grindelwald or harry n neville or harry n dobby fo rthat matter!
its such a strong feeling, such a beautiffl feeeling..... a feeling that i like feeling!

i dunno wat i would do without u... my friends!!!
thank you- ALL!!!

mumma
pa
pamma
ajju
nana

salomi
poo
aak
vinaya
tanay
adu padu
sag
nasir
doko
adi
suku
uttu
manjusha
sam
vishnu
venky
ramola
ramu
teja
tanvi
sannidhi
wedashree
shibu
radhika
maya
shruti
piya
ria
devina
kimberley

poojadi

savani

neha

krupa

karthik
deepesh
menon
anant
nanavati
jyoti
pratap
raghav
shreyans
koushik
todi
narendra
niku diku
mihir
tejashree
bhiday
swapneil
neil amanna
viraj bhide
thakks
kathik R
karthik
roshan
vrushlai
geet
vandan
irfan
anupam
omar
lagna
DT
swapniel
parmee

elita-gulu bulu
desssssssssss
shalu
zane
anhita
nadine
floru
eliza
mallu
stephanie
BRUNO *=)*
kaustubh
reuben- loser!!!
justin
sidhant
seema
shashank
arvin
bryan
viraj
jason
charlene
benson
pinky!!!!!!
usha miss n ashwini

n most of all dom!!!!

n every lil tiny friend of mine whos been with me ofr either years months days weks or even moments
i love ya'll!!!!
very very much thank you!!!!

MUAH
thanx

2007-07-16T01:11:00.000-07:00

i miss my college !!!

n my friends!!!!

waiting to get back!!!!!!!!

8 secrets

2007-07-13T03:12:00.000-07:00

when i first learnt that i was tagged n that to to write 'secrets'................ not even some personal top 100 list of sexiest men ever (which by da way would be topped by george clooney, johnny depp, richard gere, keith richards*for his AMAZING voice*, hrithik roshan. not necesarrily in dat order) i was like wat da fuk? secrets sheesh, how stoopid. i dont even have secrets.

but then i realised it wa something much more.

i read up raghav, sukanya n pratap's lists n i got thinking... way more than thinking... n da ideas just grew n grew n grew n i cant seem to fit in 8 secrets. i wanna write more n i think i will. it was like an introspective thing (or watever it is called... soul searching types)!!!

i totally loved doin it n i must so totally n comletely thank raghav n sukan for havin tagged me!

dhanyavaad, tres tres shukriya!!! (l'accent aigu missing!)

1. SECRETS???

first of all i am a completely n totally open book. there is absolutely nothin no one doesn't know about me. n if u dont u will always get the right answers provided as sukany asaid, u ask the right questions ;)

ok there a few quirky things about m ethat maybe no one knows but its not like thats a secret. its just not worth entioning.

2. FIRST CRUSH

ok this is my most embarrassing secret EVER. that's why it's comin in second- so that im done with it n u'll are done wiht the laffin.

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2

3

ihadakshonrhonsanhvi........ whoosh

ummm its actually...

i had a crush on rohan sanghvi!

*super sheepish grin*

i can just imagine all da expressions on everyone's faces right now but this was kinda fun, just writin it down.

i cant help but G.R.I.N.

3. SOMETHING QUIRKY

ok this also kinda weird too....positively weird. i hate having people around me when -

a)i'm singin or even listenin to the (well sung) National Anthem

b)i'm in an aeroplane that is either taking off or landing

c) seein partiotic things- even da India Gate or soldiers when they are marching.

this is because i umm..... cry. yup u read it right, i cry like with actuall saline water comin outta my eyes.

*tee hee*

i guess i get all senti-wenti. dont ask about da flight thing its just plain weird.

4. FASCINATION FRO STUFF!

actually i dont really think da flight thing is weird. that's because maybe ive wanted to fly all my life i always have. but i cant, more so not allowed to (some crappy medical reasons). this is one thing i really really wanted to do. FLY. it still stonishes me how these damn aeroplanes go all da way up there?!?!?!?! i mean we are not even meant to fly. not just that even child birth. i think its super cool like super magic. how on earth does a baby appear from just two tiny cells.

all im tryin to say here is im totally n completely in awe of these things, things that seem so defiant to logic n common sense. =)

oh n for the record i dont think ANYONE knows this but i COMPLETELY LOVE ALBERT EINSTEIN.

oh and i wanna get E=mc2 tattooed on myself!!!!

5. OCD (kinda) N OTHER THINGYS

i am a pucca Libran i think. in all senses of the zodiac (zodiaque!!!). the libran sign of the 'tula' or those weight lifting thingys totally define me. i ahve this weird obsession for balance...even unconciously thats wat i am n do..... i need a balance.

eg. if u ever observe me closely very very very very very very closely, which im sure no one wants to do!!!, n u see me fiddlin with my hands, if i im playin with my finger nails on one hane i will repeat da very same process on da other hand too. ditto!!! very weird thing but it happens.
also u will very rarely see me with only one ear phone on. o reven if i do have one ear phone on, in a while ill automatically n unconciously switch da earphone on the other ear!! =P

if i like something it wont be something like han its ok or theek thaak, i will totally love it. n if not i will really really hate it.

eg.IIT jEE the stooopidist decision of my life. like a twerp i decided to go for it n went for it full on. but then came momma darlin n many others who sort of 'pressured' me intogettin inot iit, like its a big deal or something.

thats wen things changed n i got all pissed n i was like enough is enough i made up my mind not to do it. just not. at all

oh n ya im quite stubborn.

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also i think im a lil too organised. its kinna like an OCD (obssessive compulsive disorder). i have this thing for 'order n symmetry'.

like... i like to have my books arranged in aparticular way, even if one book is mis placed i dont like it. even if i remove the book it should go back to da right place. even da smallest thing like my pencil box. the order of the pens must not change. the eraser has to be palced to da left of the glue n below da shrpner. ya very very weird!!!

i dont even like to change the pockets in which i keep my wallet/phone/change/handkerchief etc etc.....

6. GIMME MORE, GIMME MORE..............

i have weird thirst for knowledge. almost anythin gets ny attention except SRK n tennis!

i love reading up new things or gettin new ideas or experimenting or watever u would call it!

be it books music dancing (i LOVE dancin jhatkas matkas cum bharatanatyam) cyclin tennis sports politics forensics n sometimes even dum soap operas.

7. KIDDIE THINGS

ok another very quirky thing!!!

i have this tiny doll that was gifted to me wen i was like 3 n i still have her. her name is tiny. i love to have her next to me wenever im sleepin.n worse still i love bathin her. hee hee.*dont u get any weird ideas now!*

i love keepin memoirs n other kiddy thingys. i even have some of my bachpan ka cute 'frocks'.

n i love keepin in touch with da oldest of friends!!!!

8. BOOKS

oh everyone tinks that i love to read.... i mean yeah i do. totally but u'll be surprised by my criteria for choosin a book

many have laughed at me wenever i ask them if the book has pictures n large print???? pictures like cartoons drawings anythin!!!
now as u can see im too 'old' to read Noddy-type books, n novels dont have pix?!?!?!
the funniest thing is that ive gotten down to readin most auto/biographies just cos they have photos in it lol!!!!
why do u think i even wanted da American n not the Indian version of all d harry potter books???
its cos they have pictures in ti!!! way more fun i think!!!

i think thats why im totally in love with colours, balloons, flowers n all these happy things!!!
they are all so pleasant n positive.
i love bein +ve n i preferably dont dislike ANYTHIN. (exception is cricket)

SOME EXTRAS, sorry
9. i dunno if this would qualify as asecret its more like a secret desire/ ambition.
ive wanted to, and its been quite some time now, participate (which has tiny possibilities of being realised) and win (never ever happenin) the Tour de France!!!!!!
yup a secret dream!

10. i ve always wanted siblings dunno why? not like 'I' can help it?!?!?!?!?! lol
wonder if im missin somethin. cos honestly its not like im gettin bored alone or somethin but then of course there are times wen i want lil bro/sis to hit, pinch, fight with n yell at. but currently all these wishes of mine are being fulfilled by my dearest pa!

11. ok last one

one thing everyone says about me is 'hyperactive' , 'talkative', 'crazy' etc etc but somethin that no one knows about me is that i love my space!!! i know everone does too.

but im free spirited!!

n by my space i also mean my time n a LOT of it!
u cant hold me back or down. wen im bored at home i just take my cycle n leave cyclin till worli, haji ali anywhere. just to feel the wind n breathe fresh air, see people, different people with different moods n colours!!!! n what's da best part is that i don't tell at home where im goin so everyone is all freaked out n worried!!!!

in fact last year, the first rain i saw was sometime at 3 am !!1 n i have this thing for definitely gettin wet in da first rain, so i went down my bldg all alone for about 20 mins just to get soaked!!!
n my parents didnt n still dont know abou tit!
i like sittin at da window, painitn bein alone, readin, drawin sketchin anythin!!!!
i miss i t all, i miss me!

OMG

that was alotta secret tellin!!!
whew!!!!
i hope it wasnt too crappy. makes me feel happier n nicer after havin done it!

so thank you raghav, suku!!

AND

i hereby tag da foll people to blabber 8 of their deepest n darkest secrets!!!!:

1) Salomi
2) Mihir
3) Adi
4) Elita
5) Dominic
6) Vinaya
7) Sagar
8) Manjusha
9)Pooja A
10)Aakrita
11)Zane

i know ive tagged 11 ppl more than da reqd but had to cso i wtote 11 secrets!!!
happy writing!

yippee ,done finally!!!

Au revoir!!!

2007-05-25T04:39:00.000-07:00

my kinna guy!!!!! =)

RandOm

2007-05-14T04:06:00.000-07:00

ok this is a seriously random post
okay well i was jus thinkin stoopid reasons why someone would like someone
not reasons like he sins well/looks good/is hot
but stoopider ones, like these
i liked this one fellow cos he had cute eyebrows (not really liked him but i liked his eyebrows which is dum anyways) i don understand this funda of cute eyebrows?
then theers this other fellow i fancy cos he smells fantastically mind blowing *blushes*

ok da coolest i have heard of so far is this 'friend' of mine
i refuse to divulge her name cos this is for tp
but this miss likes a certain 'the' mr.harrison ford for da sole reason that his 'hand is made to wear da wedding band'. according to her da wedding band looks amazin on his hand hence her affection for mr.ford!
weird
* my apologies to the miss *

well please be nice enough to contribute to this weird likings list if ull can
id love to see da list grow!

2007-05-08T04:50:00.000-07:00

helmet's strapped on my head
im ready to go
the engine's revving beneath me
it's high time i go slow

the road is open
the road is wide
i see no end
i flow with the tide

the wind's rushin in my face
a storm's raging in my ears
i feel peace descending over me
all is clear

flying past my worries
the chains that tied me down
everything's left behind
somebody's gitfted me a crown

the queen of the road
the queen at the wheel
the queen of the world
i am the Queen i believe

so up ahead i surge
there's no stopping me now
crown on my head, it's time to start
the world at my feet and you in my heart

-maria

Happy Birthday To You

2007-05-08T04:35:00.000-07:00

do you kno wthat feeling u get on ur birthday? ur just happy under any circumstance!!!
it sdat feeling that i snever repeated on any toher day o fthe year. the feeling that makes u feel super awesome?
the feeling where evrything is bright, goo dn happy?
the feeling cos its your day?
the feelings o fdoing things you wouldn't wanna do otherwise?
the feeling of spurging on the most inconsequential things ever?
the feeling of supreme elation?
well i feel it every year, but only just once................
why just once? wanna feel i tmore often..... wanna feel it NOW!!!!
wadooaaydoooo????? hmph =(

special mention

2007-05-05T04:30:00.000-07:00

*
oi a special mention to priyanka Surakanti(finally got your surname right?)
thanks for introdcing me to 'bas ek apl'. i hadn't paid much attention to it, until u actually mentioned!
thankooooo
*

I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane

2007-05-05T04:19:00.000-07:00

the other day i used Google Earth to check out the area where i lived... i just realised how imperfect everything really is!!!

have you ever drawn a rough map, to give directions to anyone, or even da maps that are given along with wedding/birthday/watever invitations to give their locations?
well i ahve, n mostly all teh roads are straight, the turns are sharp. everything is a neat line..Shivaji park n king circle ACTUALLY are circular & the only angles that exist in maps are 90, 45 n 180!!!

but wen i wen tonto G_Earth n saw SP, well it looks like a....a....... an amoeba! seriously L.J.Road is NOT straight.(L.J.Road being,according to nik, 'his' road since he 'lives on it'. LOL!!!) it's not even parallel to teh other streets. and angles like 65, 92.6 and 23 also exist! even if u try to trace the path to Dadar TT, it's all like Maggi. Bloody even Tilak Bridge is a total snake! sheesh this sux!!!

'my world' was shattered. no more circles, rectangles,squares and triangles for me. boo hoo dammit. sheesh WTF????

Choli Ke Peechhe Kya Hai?

2007-05-05T04:05:00.000-07:00

hey! i did something really stooopid today!(no tike everything else that i do makes so much sense na?) but it just reminded me of a very common trait, among older, orthodox n less-sophisticated women or watever.

my granmum is inherently from this village in south India & she's stilla total 'gavti' at heart!os obviously she wears ONLY saris, non-heeled chappals, doesn't carry a purse blah blah blah blah.......

so here's where da problem arises. where do these sari-cald, no-purse-carrying women keep their wallets?? big Big BIg BIG problem!!!!

but they have just the solution for you! stuf it in your blouse! now i have no idea where do they find place in there to keep this fat money loaded wallet. and the coolest part is that theer seems to be no change in body dimensioning.LOL!!!

and the evne more surprising or watever fact is the extreme 'bindaas-ness' o fthese very same women when they jsut stuff their hands INTO their blouses IN PUBLIC to remove their 'tijori' !!!

seriously man. howdo they do this?

it still remains a mystery............

i'll always wonder(hopefully only wonder n not try!)

PS: now don't try figuring out wat I DID that got this thought in my head.
and i fu had forgotten about taht stoopid thing i said i did, great! don't think about it again!

=)

(this post was written by me a million days ago so even i cant remember how this idea sprang up?!?!?!?!)

Hole In My Soul - not by Aerosmith

2007-05-05T03:02:00.000-07:00

ok so finally there is another hole in me!!!
now dont you get confused or perverted!!!!
i just got my nose pierced u twerps...MUHAHAHAHAHAHA

well been wantin to do that for quite a while now, n i think i tlooks pretty neat on me, not that bad at alllllll............
well obviously my mum didn't want me to do it without her in attendance n she also coudn't bear to see me get it done. as it so happened theer was an inquisitive little man ( he wasn't reallly little tho) who didn't know how this piercin business is done so he came along to see me- the specimen under study.

da piercin was quick.

mumma: "is it done?" *in marathi with eyes shut behind her two hands*

mr piercer: "so you haven't told me ur name as yet" *in marathi again* (he prolly was tryin to distract me but didn't really help)

da spectator:" ooh aaah hmm. That probably hurt... see she's cryin." *points at me*
(i wasn't cryin actually. there was just water in my eyes, like it happens wen a large football of basketball hurts you bang on your nose.well if you haven't experienced it come to me, free demonstration.... even without a ball =) )

me:*smiles, looks in da mirror and approves*

it was good, n it DEFINITELY made me feel better.
i like this whole thing of gettin pierced, dunno why tho.... oh n its not painful AT ALL!!!!!

i guess im feelin girly already!!!!!
lol
tata

coolness......im BAC

2007-04-11T02:07:00.000-07:00

hi guys!!!
feels great to be back!!!
after a super long sabbatical that started because of my mum n continued thanks to my own imposition!!!
well lent is done n my dear dad for some funny reason doesnt want me to blog???!!!?!?!?!?!
i guess he thinks i waste too much time on it.

well college is really hectic n its killihn me!!!!
too many submissions, presentations n im being marked absent even for lectures that i have attended!!!! life seriously sux...

besides that pappu is good, adi has stareted workin, poo hs prelims, salomi starts her exams in a while,gulu bulu n romeo are fantastic, i have my class tests comin up,submissions n loadssa drawin stuff to do,nasir is hopefully enjoin himself in australia, i know narendra i senjoin him self hes got a fukin 19 day vacation 4 easter DOG,im not gettin any taller but defam gettin thinner(which i don mind in da least bit), shank n priyanka are goin out !!!!!

ok im never gonna stop but maybe i should

hah.

i think pappu is waitin4 me downstairs anyways nuthin much happenin around me now in da CP lab, nothin interestin at least... with ppl actually chekin out others orkut accounts n 'cute ppl' participatin in dum WWE communities.

watever

*undertaker.com????* im meanseriously guyslol

thats likie barbie.com!!!
lol
bye
PS havent seen arvin all day today
ta
muaH

2007-02-02T13:55:00.000-08:00

wats up peepal?????
3:26 am IST dunno da time in oder parts of the world, don even care.

i wonder why im up so late.... maybe cos i had a looooong conversation on da fone!!!

ps:im supposed to be sick n sleepin.

but after the call i had to take my 3:05 am medicine. see time counts!!!!

then i decided to come online n since im in no mood to blog im actually doing da same!!!!

sam is online n we're chattin random rubish, n so is sam (kagadkar, for those who know) n then some others, darlin adi for instance n mihir!!!

besides birds are asleep n so are my parents.
da fan im THIS room is not on ( tho im really sweatin) cos i think it'll give a hint to my parents that im up rite now n im online, but i think da sound da clikin on da keyboard will give me away anyways

n da fan in MY rrom IS ON!!!!! n my sheeets are stuffed with spongebob square pant sn an assortment of freshly laundered clothes to somehow make it appear like me.
oni prob is that the room im in comes BEFORE my mom can get to my sleepin room.

ok fantastic
scrwewd i htink shes up

FUK
b

simla

2007-01-29T05:08:00.000-08:00

i could not imagine that there's be a place in india, leave alone da world where people could pinker than i ever knew.
i could no timagine that there's be a place in india leave alone da world where 'i' could even 'look' pink!!!
i could not imagine a place on this complete planet where my presence could not raise the temperature!
for once i wished i was fat, cos my thin frame did not in da least bi thelp protet me from da cold.
and for those who don' agree on da me-being-thin part, you guys will hafta agree that in tht case oni my 'ass'was insulted.LOL
i was F.R.E.E.Z.I.NG.
this was simla.

i love simla.it's an amazing place. amazingly cold, C.L.E.A.R. air extremely cute n pink locals (who EVER said that pink is not meant for bois, well think again !!!) , naughty monkeys( i lost a whole bottle of tang to one!), totally black crows, furry dogs, furry/hairy horses, never ending roads, taller peaks, comfy beds, buildings that go lower than u'd imagine temperatures in single digits
freezing winds,pink cheeks, dripping noses , white n pink finger nails, watering eyes, vapour out of our mouths, the necessity of ascendin or descending to reach ANYWHERE u wanted to go, skating rinks, over sized 'glubes'( gloves as they are called in simla) on baby hands, traditional hats, coats n SO much more that i might have missed.

smla at night is COMPLETELY another beauty. she's just extremely breathtaking. beneath the deepest of blues, with the full moon hanging like a 'shiny disco ball' & selelcted stars plucked from da sky, lie the sparkling n twinkling simla heights. it's levels & levels of houses, resteraunts, shopping malls, army barracks & endless hotels lit up by tiny lights.

believe me, if the Queen's neklace is in bombay, well da rest of her jewellery is in simla!!!!!

as morning comes you see another simal,yet again!

the skies are beautiful, layered with different colours from nature's palate. the first view of simla in da mornings with the misty skies n da faraway view of the mountains actually looks like the use of spray paint n stencils. the shades of purple blending with the blues & da slow diffusion of the orange n reds as da mighty sun appears, we linger for our last day here to head for manali tomorrow.

***

Barbara Millicent Roberts

2007-01-20T05:39:00.001-08:00

When Ken and Barbie decide to call it quits, it shattered the hearts of millions of devoted fans (notice how I said 'devoted' and not 'particularly bright'). But most painful of all, no real explanation was given. However, while rooting through the dumpster behind Barbie's Dreamhouse, I discovered...

Dear Ken,
It's over. After 43 years of waiting for you to commit, I realised that I wasn't getting any younger. Of course, I'm not getting any older, either. But I think we need to see other dolls and action figures. It's time to play the Field.

Since we started dating, I've been a fashion designer, an astronaut, an animal doctor, a rock singer, an actress, a singer, a painter, a firefighter, a ballerina, a paleontologist, a pilot, a marine, a lifeguard, a dentist, a stewardess, a sales clerk, and a candidate for president. What have you ever done?

Being a plastic boy toy is no way to spend a life, Ken. It's time for you to get real.
I still remember the night I came home early to our Hot Tub and bathworks playlet, and found you there, naked, with G.I.Joe. You said it was innocent, that you'd only stripped off each other's clothes because some kid drew all over them in purple magic marker. And I took a chance and believed you. After all, neither one of you have a shween. But I had doubts.

Then, after I found a pair of raggedy panties inside the glove compartment of your fun time convertible, I had some major life decisions to make. Decisions even harder than "strawberry lip gloss or neon?"

And I came to realise that I have some self esteem issues. I'm famous, I'm rich, I'm an icon, and I still can't get a marriage proposal out of you after 40 years. Who do you think I am? Oprah? A girl can only stare at her disco lamp, her slide 'n splash pool, her karate kit with carrying case, and her other 43,000 possessions for so long.

We've grown apart. You've always treated me like I'm some kind of interchangeable bimbo, as if there are a billion other dolls out there just like me. Haven't I always maintained my 49-7-28 figure? Or am I just some kind of hollow plaything? How I've longed to hear those three little words from you, Ken, and I don't mean "no assembly required."

I need some shelf space. I feel like I'm suffocating inside a small cardboard box. I'm in pain, Ken, and not just from the same blank expression since 1961. I still have fake feelings for you. My love once burned brightly as the 3 watt bulb in my oven. This breakup doesn't have to be forever. After we've had some time to think, after we've discovered where our lives are headed, and especially after the marketing department of Mattel milks the everloving piss out of this, we'll get back together. Probably just in time for the holiday season.

Party on,

Barbie.

2007-01-12T08:54:00.000-08:00

the followin lines have been shamelessly copy-pasted from some one else's blog, n im sure that these lines weren't his too!
but i just had to put it here so guys get to read 'quality stuff'.
enjoi it

Seinfeld is always fabulous (excuse me if I’m repetitive about this!) but Georgie boy really outdoes himself with this….
“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean life is tough.It takes up a lot of time. What do you get at the end of it-Death?? What’s that, a bonus? i think, the life cycle is backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way.Then you go live in an old age home. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, then, when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work for forty years until you are young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party and get ready to attend High School. You go to primary school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back, you spend your last 9 months floating with luxuries like central heating, spa, room service on tap and then finish off as an orgasm. Amen!!”

frustration

2006-12-01T22:41:00.000-08:00

this is a poem i just wrote for tp, like someone whos really pissed with life n is all preared to die, to finish it all, n is on da edge.
might not sound so edgy but......comments please

you want to give me
what i want
then try giving me
some piece of mind

you want to give mw
what i want
then how about a
lot more time???

you want to give me
what i want
what about a nice warm hug?
you want to give me
what i want?
then what about a face all smiley n smug?

you want to give me
what i want
then drive away the tears from my eye
you want to give me
what i want
what about a nice way to say good bye?

good bye to all my tensions
good bye to the pain
good bye to all the sorrows
good bye to is all the way

just take me far away
away from where i am-
where no one keeps me happy
& no one's happy if I am.

so this is what i want
i think it's not enough
but try giving me a piece of it
and i swear its not a bluff.

----x----

2006-12-01T02:43:00.000-08:00

the other day on the way to tuitions, as i was dutifully holding( she was more like grasping and clinging) sandy's hand to help her cross the most convoluting, messy and indisciplined road EVER; this super kick-ass Bullet cuts our path, not only physically but also with its annoyingly loud and screechy horn.HORNY GUY! ( no pun intended...... :P yeah right!)

it was coincience but sandy and me, together, yelled "SHUUUUUUUTTT UUUUUP!!!!!"
but me, being me, with my big fat mouth had to add anither 'mild' word after all that hollering-
ASSHOLE!!! how courteous of me!

but whatever, i hadn't realised the serious (or not) consequences of my verbal praises to Mr.Bullet. sweet fellowwent ahead but kept looking backat us through his rear view mirror.AND to add to the spice in my life, he stopped.
yah! like he just stoppd dead in his tracks in da middle of the street.
sandy lost it
she was freaked!
first of all HE cut us ; then WE yelled at HIM ; and then HE........stops.

what should she do? what hould ahe do????
now sandy, being her usula confused self, just started looking at her usual confused self. she just started looking at abslutely nothing, in ABSOLUTE space, in all weird directions waaaaay above our n Mr.B's eye level!!
it was more than obvious that she was perplexed, but was hillarious all the same! * you would realise the comic angle of the situation, if only tyou culd see Sandy's face then.
see mum, this is when u neeeed a phone with a camera!!! *

anyways, now it was MY turn.what should 'I' do?????there was absolutely no time to think. by da time my brain culd acyually function between all the traffic, road crossing, confusion n hollering, i almost reached da guy!!!!
i was quite nervous.
and generally for some reason when im nervous i fiddle with my stuff. at that poin of time i decide to fiddle with my glares which were already safely n comfprtably residing on the bridge of my nose. so as i reached him (he, who was wearing a helmet) all i managed to do was look at him straight in the eye and adjust my glares in the view of his helmet.

you have no idea how scared i was, how fast it happened, how fast my fear subdued and how fast he zoomed away from us!!!!

it's been three days since (27th of nove- precise date)and i still cant get over it. dunno why?
and guess what my immediate reaction was, after MrB zoomed off was...................................
whether vhe was cute?????? lol

might or might not sound bitchy, but i simply luuurve to pick on stoopid fights in da middle of the street with cute guys.
it's interesting if the guy, along with being cute is blessed with a lil bit o' intelligence and an incy wincy bit of a skill to argue n manipulate the convo a lil!!!!

would've been SO much more fun!!!

double purpose solved! - arguing (which i love) -AND viewing eye candy!

sound nice n inviting but for some unfortunate reason i have never encountered these.
by these i mean a cute guy with the brains n all the above enlisted qualities.... and a da middle of the street to argue with him !!!
yeah, life can get mean!
but until that day, I shall wait for thee!!!
so come one come all, but only handsome hunks!!!

DOOM (for abhishek bachchan...definitely)

2006-11-26T20:18:00.001-08:00

STATUTARY WARNING TO ALL BOYS:
this post features detailed descriptions of the hottest male body on the planet.so unless your not 'straight' think twice and go ahead.

NOTE: oh and a sorry to AB jr and all his fans, his name's gonna be featured waaaayyy lesser in my future posts.

okay this one is solely, completely n totally dedicated to (now confirmed) my FAV FOREVER-Hrithik Roshan.
i just saw D2 & believe me after the movie all i can remember is Hrithik and his super hot abs!!!! **ck man he's totally hot, like totally and unbearably!!!
he's totally intoxicating & i'm sure this is one hangover I would like to last FOREVER.
for the first time i found a man , a husband...and a father so UNCONTROLLABLY n INTOLLERABLY HOT.i mean it when i say that the screen was scorching. its so **cking pissing off.
its so annoying to see sucha FANTASTICALLY TONED body with one of the ........ actually THE most handsomest face on the planet.
especially the damn scene where he comes as ARYAN in Rio, with that red shirty thingy . he's lke walking towards you n all you can focus on is his damn body. chest . perfect abs . well toned . flat tummy . tucked in . glowing tan . n goin lower and lower .... so low....... slowly slowly along the neatly descending contours of his AMAZING body to .........to................ to ....................
be.... SUDDENLY interrupted by his bloody black undies n the denim hem line of hi jeans.oooooooohhhhhhh just missed.
FUCK!! dammit
but what a treat!!! YUMMMMM :P
i've always liked hrithik, he's always been my favourite but in the middle maybe there was AB jr and maybe some other sidies here and there but now all the doubts are cleared.
choice-->
hot single dude, available SCORCHING HUBBY/DAD UNAVAILABLE

hrithik, all the waaaaaaay.

sorry AB you gotta go.
as Uday chopra aka ali would out it- "abhishek ab toh teri vaat".

now i'm actually beginning to wonder, did i ever really like AB?maybe ya. but in this movie hrithik has so totally overshadowed everybody!
why oh why oh why..... does he hafta look sooooooooo GOOD???
its so fukin annoying, irritating n pissing off.i was totally frustrated since all you can do is seee him move his booty and slek body in front of you, like this tempting ice-candy that is melting, thats wooing you to actually make a fool of you cos he's so UNACCESIBLE.
sheesh* grunt burp *

ok, one, no.....two last things :
1)i for once envy somebody n that would be- suzzane.
2)n a million thanks to the dhector mr.gandhvi or whoever, for not killin hrithik& also making him look SO hot.
ok third one too.... last one ok?? last last last please??? *not like you'll can say no!!!!*
3)why can't 'I' be cast opposite hrithik. why does it have to be that bum, aishwarya rai???(aren't all of them bums???) why? why? why? why? why?
*twit*
oooooohhhh n that kiss.....DAMMIT

believe me fellow chiklets n also until-now-AB jr fans , the time has come to re-evaluate your choices!
AB jr is old,
put him on hold,
hrithik is here!!!!
*oh gawsh* so time to grab his rear.
LMFAO hillarious n stoopid but nuthin else was rhymin n also soundin yummy at da same time lol!!!!
hope u enjoyed it.

PS:@ salomi- before you ask me, here's da answer, Daniel Craig...... is HISTORY! =)

a hope in tomorrow (2nd)

2006-11-14T21:45:00.000-08:00

look the sun is setting,
as though marking it's defeat;
dying into the horizon,
after completing a brilliant feat.

it had been the cynosure,
an element of magnificient intensity;
but now as the vigour departs,
i look inot the sky with pity.

left back in the shaken spirit,
that i try hard to jostle againt;
groping away in the dark,
suddenly an ebbing light i sensed.

for just as i almost permitted,
myself to surrender;
it rose again with a glorious shine,
and a vibrant new energy to render.

'cos at day break it gradually showed up,
re-appearing in the far east;
with an incipeant gleam that grows with time,
certainly to the eyes a feast.

and even when it had set,
it sank with dignity and grace;
creating a beautiful twilight,
amidst the subtle darkness to trace.

so yes, the sun sets,
but never to depart;
only to rise again,
with the prospects of a brand new start.

it rises to the occasion,
of yet another day;
i'd sit and pray to God ,
and i would hear God say:

"it rises to the promise,
of yet another tomorrow;
it profusely shares its brilliant light,
so careful and free from sorrow."

"unvanquished it remains,
it teaches us never to frown;
it emerges from the darkest tunnels,
and thn upon us it ever shines down. "

********************************

this poem is dedicated especially to my aunt- priya akku aka teacher,
the one who inspired me to write poetry.
thanq

for the engineers.... n others who connect with me

2006-11-14T21:36:00.000-08:00

are these words familiar.....?????

blah
blee
bloo
blah
bah
baaah
brrrr
grrrr
burp
B.U.R.P.
hmmph
?
baaaaaaaaaah
^o)
aaaarrrGGHHH!!!!
shit
fuck
dammit
SHIT
bullcrap
*yaawwwnnn*
shit tomorrow's the deadline?!!?!?!?
HAhhahahahhhhahhhahhHHhHhHhahhahHAAAHAhhhAH = hysterical laughter
FUCK
=)
* stop looking at your watch....... time is eternal..... pay attention instead!!! *

ok this was alot of crapping

My life (for now)

2006-11-13T21:14:00.000-08:00

my life right now is the most exciting thing EVER!!!!! my life just revolves around goin to college early in da morning, survivng through it, n then tutions n then tyring to come back home in one piece!!!!

here's how a regular college day 4 me is like (pS : lucky me... i have college only from monday to friday!!!)
-get up at 6- shit - brush ma teeth - have a bath - run n hurry to da station to try n catch a 7:03 Virar fast, worst come ill take da 7:20 - try to reach on time somehow.
my way from da train to college is haillarious..... first i might just doze off during the journey so when boriavli comes, i get up, gather all my bags n just manage to jump off da train on time... or i shall be off to virar which is god knows where ????!!!! then i see that there's like 10 mins for college to begin, so i rush outta da station to find somebody to share a rick with me ( i don go alone in a rick... not cos im scared, but cos im a chindi as you all know, so that i can split da cash lol!!!! ). so when i finally get into one, tryin to squeeze in with 3 other chiks/dudes of varying size n age my journey feels complete!!!
or the only other option that im left with is - the bus. not bad , but i gotta run to da stop, tryin to dodge all these weirdo rickshaws on da way, who are just hell bent to begin their day by killing me!!!! then wave for da bus to stop, cos they always leave without me, n i run behind them like peter parker aka spiderman!!!! *n i shall take my revenge with these bus-walas one day...... signed spiderwoman :P *
so whichever route i take i reach college... ON time, miraculous i know, but an adventure every single day!!!!!

then college life constitues of few ,maybe unimportant or important but vital things.

1) attending lecs- yes i do that, marks ka sawaal hai. my college is so chaloooo na they've kept marks for attendance so we've gotta attend, but then of course there are those occassional bunkers!!! me sometimes too* proudly sniffs*
but most of the lec goes in either correcting the teachers or reading some trash in BT or completin 'others' ' journals or drawing caricatures of teachers or doodling and in some cases teachers sleepin (ref: A.K.Sen) !!! and once... for being cught by a teacher cos i was smiling at someone across the class?!?!?!?!? *sheesh*

2) goin to da canteen: its da adda of college... with all da masala gossip n rumours of all sorts!!!!
" arrey da appers got preponed by a month!!!!!". " shut up . if they WERE preponed by a month they wouldve started today!!!! "
"i heard dominic asked you to da prom?????"
"is it true?!?!!?"
"chek out da fellow behind me chek you out!!!!"
"oh is he???"
" he's So hot"
"i soooo agree"
"OMG da "stud" is here!!!!!"

n other such stuff... or else just plain loud hollering... let me elaborate-
"SHAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNN"
" kale............. Kale................... KAle ................... KALe ............KALE .................K.A.L.E."
"**ootiya, bloody fukers,damn-shit-fuck"
" dominic... who's dominic????.... 'V' who's dominic?????"
etc etc..
*hee hee*

3) elevator: believe me readers this is theeeeeeeee most happenin place to be in college. with all da hotties in da college usin it ALL day long!!!
go up or down at anytime you will definitely find yourself in da company of either someone you are staring at or someone staring at you!!!!
BONUS: when da lift is full-
(a) you get to 'squish' with these very hotties lol.
(b)or just see them waitin outside the elevator with sad faces cos they just missed thrie trip down... with maybe....ME!!!!!

4) pracs: of course 90% of us haven't done our journals so we're basically just runnin around da HUGE labs to search for completed stuff.
then everyone realises that they dont haf graph papers ... or header pages..... or ALL of it. so the good girls me n foram go raound askin everyone wat n how much of each do thse guy want. then we're off on her scooty'pep' to have a much deserved ride to IC n bak after buyin da 'stuff'.
when we're bac, n after the collection of money is done (which never tallies with how much we have spent)... we are thanked * muaahhh blowing kisses to the fellow sufferers of engg*

5)the end of the day: chillin out at the stage. waiitn 4 da bunch to come down. actually this is th time when most people come to college, cos this is the time when everyone starts playing on the field. you can hear people rev their bikes, or just quietly start it n leave most inconspicuosly.
this is when we have the last of our laughs for the day.

6)at the station on the way home: after we're off the rick , des n me have the most common discussion of our lives- should we take a slow or a fast home??? ( u see des can't take a fast.... PROBLEM PROBLEM PROBLEM) then you hear the most annoying song... worse than 'da man himself- himesh R'. it keep splayin all da long at da station. it goes something like "....... rail ki patri............... " * its in hindi*
but thats da least of my problems...... read no.7!!!!!

7) journey back home: more than 80% of the time i sleep on da way back..... n then im doomed.
once was da best!!!!! i took a power fast home ( ya i know u don't understand these terms, it took me a while to get used to these too!!!! for now just read it n go ahead). i slept through out the journey n when i opened my eyes voila ... im at churchgate!!!! TADA!!!!!! was hillarious!!!
will tell u more stories n deatils in another blog.

the tinier things in college worth a mention are -sayin hi to sudhir, repyin to "gooood mornin madam" from da watch man, getting screamt at for not wearing da id card, oh n ya...this HUGE gory fight between teo guys in my class in the first week of college itself!!!!.... which was....... recorded on video n circulated!!!!! , laughing our heads off during the breaks n being shouted at from the ground floor (we're on the second floor!!!!) for our riot, tryin our best to convince the fevicols of class to join in da mass bunk, watch the neighbouring classes convince thei fevicols
to bunk!!!! oh n FE4 (that's the neighbouring class) actually went all da way to throwing those people's bags out of the window who didn't wanna join da mass bunk................ n on n on n on n on... the stories will never stop.
but this an average day of my life. im guessin u guys enjoyed it as much as i did writing it!!!!!!!

hhhaaaahhhh i feel really relieved after talkin sooooooooooo much. =)
adios ppl

(S)-KANK

2006-11-11T11:04:00.000-08:00

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it's 01:46 hrs in my watch (1 in da mornin that is... u dodos ! ) on da 16th of august. well i just returned frome da theatre after watching KANK ( kabhi alvida na kehna, for those who don't know.................actually who doesnt??? even 'A' knows whta KANK stand sfor- the as-usual-over-publicised-karan-johar-movie of the year!)
i had NO intentions of watching it until my cousin INSISTED that we go watcha movie together & she picked this one!
* thinks over it again* maybe i'd watch it for abhishek *giggles*

II
( a few weeks back)
" WHAT???? KANK (pronounce as kunk ie skunk with out the 's'). i'm never gonna watch that one... eeeeeeeeeewwwww. it's gonna be so KJ (karan johar) n sappy n gooey n bejewelled.",
i complained groggily.
"but for me pwweeeeezzzz pretty please. oh come on , what's the big deal?it's not like im gonna be in bombay forever", slowly mumbled my cousin.

* dammit emotional black mail always works with me*

"hmm.........maybe...........umm............ok............yeah.............fine. i'll call you"
"YES" *hi 5* she murmured.
"what did you say????"
" nothin , nothin....."
i can hear her sniggering continue though.
her mission is accomplished but i'm just too sleepy to argue and explain how much of my precious time i was gonna waste for some lame movie.
i just hung up n went back to sleep.

III
i'm feeling sheepish to admit but.... i liked the movie..... quite a bit that too....
BAH there i said it!!!
yes after all the shit that you just heard from me
actually it was quite a surprise for me but the movie made 'sense'.it was a new idea, maybe they've tried it before ( as in pati,patni aur woh n stuff) but here they used main stream actors plus i totally loved it, especially da chracters.
AAANNNNDDD for those twits*sorry 4 da word* who took their kids for this movie-whta were you'll thinking???, & for those will be twits who are gonna take their kids for this movie- what are you'll thinking???
honestly this isn't some movie your gonna wanna take ur kids for this movie... wat are you'll thinking???
honestly this isn't some movie you would take your kids to , besides it wn't make sense to them, unless they know wat 'saand' means!?!?!?!
Though my cousin , here, begs to differ i was perfectly content with the movie. * just look at the way im commenting on it... like im some huge critic lol... n my opinion relly matters.... lol.... it's fun though!!!*
the story , the build up of relationships n the mess made shown
infidelity- very well shown but not something worth learning from ;)
bu ti have to say.... SRK looked good..... ( OMG wat am i saying???) * holds her mouth shut with her hands before she can say anything more preposterous*
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oh you know wat i was gonna crap more on the shitty cast n stuff of this movie, but im bored already so i shall chuk it.
but i definiely HAFTA mention one thing.........abhishek (bachahan of course, stop grinning shadowfax!!! ) was d.r.i.p.p.i.n.g. testosterone.... he's one fukin hot fellow. =) =) =) =) =) =)
oh n a general warnin to nayone who has'nt seen ti but might just.... the end is the longest ever.... Ever EVer EVEr EVER........... plus it S.U.X.
so go enjoi the movie, especially the scene whrere srk n rani are confused bout their respective spouses havin an affair!!!!
tata then
adios amigos :o)

1st

2006-11-10T10:19:00.000-08:00

who are you?
where are you from?
i live in this world,
but what's gone wrong?

i see every morning,
leaves painted with dew,
crows, pigeons and sparrows,
but only a few.

the sun rises in the east
and sets in the west,
but before the latter happens
i must go through the day and rest.

who am i?
what ami gonna do here?
everywhere i go
are people far and near.

where do i get the silence
and the peace of mind,
when noise and hordes of people
is all i can find.

one way that i go leads me no where;
the other way i go, i get every whrere.
if i leave everything,
nothing comes tracking me down;
am 'I' nothing in this world,
more than a pronoun???

in this amalgamation of people, people and more;
searching for me has become a huge chore.
the more i look for myself,
the lesser i have found.
the hapiness of the world,
seems more n more profound.

where do i go from here?
where does my journey take me?
the only thought that keeps me going,
is that i know that one day i will be free.

till then i must walk,
through life's mysterious ways,
which will some day end me up,
with myself face to face

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Welcome all

2006-10-27T22:51:00.000-07:00

welcome one welcome all.... dudes and chiklets!!!
finally i have created my blog!!!
its really funny but ive been crazy to create my blog for quite some time now n my friend salomi has been da poor bearer of the brunt, cos i jus keep explaining to her in great detail about my 'imaginary' blog!!!
so this one is to welcome everybody!!! FINALLY to my blog, n this one is dedicted to salomi! bestest buddy ever! muah!
i love you!